Oh wait… THEY DON’T NEED TICKETS TO SEE THEIR DAD!"
Så jävla BRA! haha, ni måste gå in på länken för att se den underbara gifen som hör till inlägget också.
Oh wait… THEY DON’T NEED TICKETS TO SEE THEIR DAD!"
Jag är död, jag är verkligen h.e.l.t död.
Sugen på att tatuera in orden Big Dreams någonstans på kroppen, kanske ovanpå foten. Ni vet, man måste ha drömmar, stora drömmar, annars känns livet som ett hopplöst helvete. Min drömmar har inte alltid gått i uppfyllelse men nog fan har de hjälpt mig genom livet många gånger.
Beställt nya shorts från topshop idag efter att jag såg de på Kenzas blogg. Blev helt kär i de, var tvungen att ha de, de känns så jag! Blev lite stressad över att de skulle ta slut så nu är de beställda :D yay! Så jävla poppiga. Mätte mig själv innan jag beställde de också, för en gång skull, så nu är det bara att hålla tummarna för att de ska passa! Är lite nervös faktiskt över att de ska vara försmå men då är det väl bara att lämna tillbaka de och ta en storlek större, I guess.
Jaha då sitter man vaken då. Solen skiner så underbart :D dock fick jag mina soltimmar igår för idag ska jag jobba, 13-20:45 men imorgon är jag ledig så då jäklar då ska jag ligga utslängd på gräsmattan hela dan. Tycker det är så skönt att den här värmen är tillbaka, kände det igår, hur mycket kroppen har saknat den. Inte bara för att jag vill bli brun utan för att den värmde så skönt. Blundade jag kunde jag nästan ha trott att jag var utomlands.
They sure don't do interviews this way in Sweden. Viva España!
, de senaste två veckorna har sömnen varit pissigt dålig, somnat alldeles för sent och inte fått sova ut på morgnarna. Paniken i bröstet växer, framtidstänket går som ett virrvarr i hjärnan på mig. Hatar den där isande panikkänslan. Jävla skit att det ska vara så tungt. Vill inte tänka på det dåliga, vill inte tänka på att min framtid inte kommer formas som jag vill att den ska formas. Känner att jag snart får ge upp om mina Spanien tankar och det gör verkligen ont, jobbiga jävla tårar och skit. Fan, jag vill inte... stressen stressen stressen, jag vill bara sväva bort till något annat, en annan plats men jag vill få leva inte gå under. Känns som jag klättrar men berget bara rasar. Vill bara få somna så att det blir dag så att jag slipper de här känslorna. Vill bara flyga men jag har ingen vind. Fan..
För er som undrar,
I feel good na-na-na-na-na don't know why I shouldn't
upp för att...
matchens tummen ner för att...
Jag älskar älskar älskar att få spela denna på gitarr, särskilt refrängen åååh så underbar Watch over you på ultimate-guitar så klart;)
Lionel Messi (får bara den där jäkla Crackovia låten på hjärnan när jag säger hans namn, länk till låten som börjar ca. 1:38)
..det var som magi, en tjock dimma av magi som svepte sig över Stockholm Stadion igår kväll och ungefär vid den här tiden för ett dygn sen lämnade jag den stadion med ett stort leende på läpparna och en underbar flygande känsla i magen. Så bra var de. Jag är Foo-iserad! Jag är en frälst Fighter! Dave Grohl var magisk, hela bandet var... awesome!
"Bojan signs a 2 season contract with AS Roma"but I don’t want him to go.
but it’s for the best.
but he’s our bojan.
but he should go and grow.
but Bojan... Dock är inget direkt redigerat, men jag hoppas att ni gillar detta medellånga första kapitel.
Noah's age: 11?
”Noah! Get your hands off that! That's your daddy's.” She slapped his hand hard. “I don't have time for this.” She started fumbling with her fake Luis Vuitton purse and got hold of her wallet. “Here.” She reached him a dollar without looking at him. “Be good to dad/father now okay? He's tired.”
He's filled with shit. He wanted to say but left it unspoken. Instead he nodded in response. She put her hand around his neck and kissed his forehead. Then she hurried out of the kitchen dressed in her cafeteria uniform, leaving him with a pot of cold porridge on the oven and a drunk father in the living room.
He should love her, shouldn't he? She was his mother after all. Wasn't it morally incorrect to not/not to love your (own) mother?
The walls stared blankly at him expect for the door which was covered with a large Led Zeppelin poster he'd gotten for his last birthday by his brother. He wasn't really allowed to put things on the walls, it would be easier and less expensive to sell the old shanty if he didn't ruin the wallpaper.
He sat down on his bed, an military one his dad had bought lose from the days of his military training. He picked up his cassette tape player, covered his ears with the yellow headphones and shut his eyes as the music danced through him. The words streamed inside of him, brought him with them to another space and time where only he himself could decide what would happen (to him).
“So.. how's school (today)?” His dad said with a newly awoken voice when/as Noah accompanied him in the living room.
“It's summer-break dad.” He said, but tried not to sound too disappointed about his dad's lack of knowledge, it would only trigger him. It was not worth it. He sat on his hand in the sofa from the 70's.
“Oh.. yeah, (of course) I knew that.” He put down the empty beer bottle on the table beside the armchair and tried to sit up straight.
This was how they interacted with each other, all the time, short sentences, no care in either of their voices. In the background Jerry Springer talked about how people should not forget to love those they call family.
“So when's she comin' home?”
“Late.”
“Mhm..” He grunted and got up from the armchair. Noah noticed his dad looked older and more miserable than it had been, dressed in those ragged clothes, as he headed for the bathroom.
Noah had loved him once as only an innocent child can love his father. When he was younger, when his father didn't drink so much, then he had been Noah's hero. The summer days spent fishing by the lake, learning how to ride his bike, falling – getting up again, listening to his father playing the bass. He missed all those things, but he had a feeling he'd never get all that back again.
When they'd eaten the porridge, or mostly Noah had, since his dad counted the calories in what he was drinking rather than what he was eating, the front door opened with a low shriek. Jesse stepped into the hallway dressed in a pair of tight jeans and a jeans jacket. His hair was pitch black and too long for a boy('s). He'd once mentioned that the cause of the long hair was the rebellion in him trying to revolt/fight back against their parents.
He walked into the kitchen and opened the fridge, looked at the content for a while before grabbing the last milk and placing it to his mouth.
“Mum won't be happy about that.” Noah said.
Jesse closed the fridge and put down the milk packet on the worktop behind him.
“She isn't here is she?” He smirked.
“No.”
“Then it's totally fine.”
“Why?”
“Because we're only allowed not to drink directly from this when she can't see us, get it?” He held up the milk (package)
“Kind of..” Noah said with a strange face.
Jesse laughed.
“Everything okay here?”
“Dad's sleeping.”
“Great.” He took one last sip from the milk(package) before he put it back on the top shelf in the fridge. He turned his back on the kitchen and walked out in the hallway.
“Where'r you going?” Noah yelled after him.
“To my room.”
“You're not gonna watch porn/naked women/ladies are you?”
He heard Jesse laugh.
“No.”
“Can I come then?”
“..Sure.”
Noah left the unfinished/dirty dishes on the (round) table and trotted to the stairs.
His brother's room did not follow the set down rules of naked walls, instead they were totally covered with all kinds of (legendary) rock bands like Nirvana, Led Zeppelin, Gun's and Roses, Queen, etc. Noah stared at the black electric guitar placed on the wall above Jesse's bed. It had Curt Cobain's autograph on it.
“How did you get that again?”
Noah never got tired of asking, and Jesse, even though he was (he) never showed, that he was tired of explaining.
(Later Jesse will give the guitar to Noah as they grow older, in the first chapter Jesse's about 16? and Noah's 9-10?)
Jesse took down the instrument and placed himself on the bed. Noah climbed up beside him to listen to his brother re-citing the story of the how he'd gotten when he was at (band) concert.
When he had finished explaining Noah said:
“I wish I could be in a band...”
“Why do you think I practice everyday?” Jesse said with a smirk, placing the guitar neatly in his arms. Jesse closed his eyes and shut out the world around him. Quietly he started jamming on the guitar, humming along with its gentle melody. Noah sat quiet, listening, trying too to shut out the surroundings that suppressed them both. He tried to feel the music dance inside of him but to his disappointment he didn't feel it.
He thought about how much he hungered to learn, how envious he was over/about his brothers talent. How he two wanted to learn, to be taught how to not only play but how to actually play with his heart and so it poured out of him:
“Could you teach me?”
He had longed to say it, to ask the question he'd carried like a burden for so long. His brother was everything to him and he didn't want to seem like a carriage to him, and if Jesse said no Noah would feel more than just sad(ness), it would be like the end of the world.
“Really? I mean.. you'd like that?”
Noah nodded.
“Okay.” Jesse placed the large guitar in Noah's lap. “Put your fingers here.”
“Here?” Noah said, looking carefully up at his brother, while he felt the blood rush and the adrenaline pump in him like he was on fire.
“And then you just...” He put his hand on top of Noah's and together they pulled Noah's small fingers over the metal strings.
When it was all dark outside they started arguing in the kitchen again, yelling at each other to shut up. Noah sat on top of his bed, listening to his cassette bands to put out all the noise. He tried to sing along to Nirvana's (?) as quietly as he thought was possible, sounding only like a low whistle or a whisper in the wind. He wanted nothing more than to sing, to become a rock star, to get away from everything.
The door burst open and his mother stood in the doorway, panting and staring at him with furious eyes. Her blond hair was a mess and so was her makeup.
“The dishes! Why would you leave the freaking dishes on the table, Noah! I've told you...”
She started crying. He just looked at her blankly.
“Give me that!” She yelled, stretching out her arm to him while she stumbled into his room.
He squeezed the player tightly as he tried to hide it from her in his arms.
“Stop it Noah! Give me.”
She was close now, too close. He crawled up to the wall with his knees pressed to his chest. She put her hands forward and tried to bend his arms open.
“No!!” He yelled, feeling the lump of cry thicken(ing) in his throat. “Let me go!”
She could hit him as hard as she wanted as long as she didn't touch the cassette band-player. It was all he had, it made him be able to escape to where ever he wanted.
“Give me that useless thing!” She shouted. He felt her saliva on his face and then he felt the hard thud as he fell headlong to the floor with her on him. His head started aching, the blood rushed through it and it felt like his brain would explode any minute.
“No—Noah?” She whimpered. “Noah?”
He looked to his left, his arm outstretched with the cassette band-player not far from him. It didn't play any music but he heard the song in his head as he closed his eyes. There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold. And she's buying a stairway to heaven
He was rushed to the emergency and later his mother gets mad at him again for costing her money.
Så jävla nöjd! Orkade ta mig ut på en 40 minuters joggingtur både igår och idag!!! :D Happy happy! Foo Fighters Wasting Light är musiken jag svettas till just nu. Väldigt bra att hålla jämt tempo till.
Vår allas Barcelona Bojan fick komma in i ~80:e minuten. Det mest lustiga var att han möttes av ett enorm tjej tjut från publiken. I understand them the boy's got some swag.He felt him behind him. Wanted to scream. The petrifying fear numbed him. His heart stopped. The little boy inside him died right there in the bedroom of his mother. He closed his eyes, desperately trying to get to the place in his memory, the most beloved memory. To the park where he used to play on the swings with his brother. Desperately trying to remember Jesse's smile, those smiling eyes, those smiling eyes. Trying so hard to remember what turned blurry before his eyes. It hurt, it burned the pain was unbearable. The hand with the narrow fingers silenced him turned his cries into whispers no one could hear. “Jesse!” The little boy in the park is screaming. “Jesse where are you?!” Tears streaming down his face when he can't find his brother. Looking around him but can only see grass and trees, can't even see the swings in the playground. Is suddenly hearing his brother's warm laughter. “Here I am silly!” Turning his head, facing his brother, the playground arises from the ground. Seeing him, feeling the relief of finding his brother. Running towards the swings. It burned even worse. Jesse reaching out his hand to him. “Can I swing with you?” “Sure.” Jesse is saying and takes his hand, pulling him up on the swing. They swing together in the happy place. He doesn't want to let go of that memory, desperately clinging on to it with his entire life. Wanting nothing more than to be at that place right now right at that moment when the dragon slays him, swallows him alive. Longed for Jesse to take him with him to the park where only happiness existed, where there were no tears or sad scars on ones heart. The dragon huffed and puffed then left his pray to die. Would he rise from the ashes like a phoenix? Or would he just disappear into the nothingness.
Jesse came home late that night. When their eyes met, Jesse knew. “Let me help you.” he said and led his brother in to the bathroom. He put the water on in the bathtub then he turned the water on.
Iker Muniain and David de Gea have changed the hairstyle they arrived with to Silkeborg. However, neither of the two went to a barber shop of the small and tranquil Danish city. Their hair stylist has been their teammate, Jeffrén Suárez. The Barcelona player, who learned his trade from Gerard Piqué, got to work and left his two teammates with the sides almost completely bald and a bit of longer hair down the middle. “He’s not bad,” jokes Muniain, who occupied Jefferen’s position on the starting team against Czech Republic.
Meanwhil
e, the players kill time with the playstation. Muniain arrived as novice and throughout all this time with the team has turned into an expert. Others prefer ping-pong, and here the maestro above all the rest is Álvaro Domínguez.
(- the cutest ever ^^)
Lol, Thiago jobbandes på Jeffrens salong, my baby can not only play football, he can trim my hair aswell!
Tog oss in till Gränby C med de boende nu på eftermiddagen, en skulle klippa sig och jag fick uppdraget att vara med honom till frisören. OMG varför försökte en av de manliga frisörerna äta upp mig med blicken? Inte för att jag klagade ;) han gjorde det på ett väldigt oskyldigt sätt vilket fick honom att se sötare ut. Man rätar lite på ryggen när sånt där händer, inte sant?
ta ner en stund och koppla av. Ska in en vända med mamma och köpa ingredienser till morgondagens lilla släktkalas. Ska bli trevligt :)
Det här är ju mycket roligare att titta på än när pappa spelar, I wonder why ;) hehe
Thiago's part *cAN't--- BREATHE!*
i alla fall den bästa på flera nätter.
- Just saw Thiago smiling on tv and I kind just... *died*FUCK THAT.
I NEED A BOYFRIEND WHO I CAN WATCH WHEN HE PLAYS PROFESSIONALLY ON TV.
Har lite blandade känslor efter gårdagens konsert och vet inte riktigt vad jag ska tycka om den.
Kolla in den här video, Shakira får inte nog av sitt lammkött Pique, haha loco girl!
Sådär då var jag hemma igen, jäklar idag gick det RIKTIGT trögt att springa, inte alls skönt men jag tvingade mig och kom hem på ungefär samma tid som jag brukar, så jag är nöjd. Nu sitter jag här och är tomatröd i hela facet. Ska snart hoppa in i duschen, sen ska jag göra i ordning middagen. Vill dock inte diska upp all disk, det är verkligen ett BERG. Jag orkar inte, det är som att den där skiten slängs på mig bara för att jag är hemma, har ju inte jobbat lika lång dag som resten av familj så ja då räknas det väl typ som att jag har varit hemma idag. Det känns så ibland. Nu är det så att sen tidigare veckor så har våran diskmaskin blivit riktigt riktigt paj och har väl inte direkt gått att laga, nu har mina päron bestämt sig för att beställa hem en ny som kommer nu i veckan, vilket är bra då jag råkade ha sönder maskinen totalt idag . . . he-he... knapparna bara råkade.. lossna när jag skulle öppna diskmaskinen med bara en hand vilket är TOTALT förbjudet these days eftersom att "handtaget" är väldigt löst/sitter dåligt. Så nu går det ju inte att starta maskinen alls och jag orkar inte sätta tillbaka de där jävla knapparna eftersom jag i all hast hakade på "handtaget" och nu går det inte att riva loss igen... där har ni anledningen till att jag inte pallar att diska disken för hand.

Under gårdagens U21 match var det inte bara Spanien som hade något att erbjuda, det var helt enkelt lite grönare på andra sidan. England överraskade mig med kardemummornas kardemumma; Ryan Bertrand (Jack Rodwell var dock inte så dum han heller) den här killen har så där grymt vackert gröna ögon som Dani Alves har, jag blir avundsjuk! (haha varför är jag avundsjuk? jag har ju typ gröna ögon... snacka om att vara slut i bollen skyller på att jag sovit dåligt inatt)